I just had a really good weightlifting session at the gym. I had some sort of breakthrough that I can’t quite explain. I had just completed my set of dead-lifts and a light bulb went off in my head. I suddenly realized that I
am a bad-ass can do it. I can be strong. I can be confident. I can be me.
You see, I’ve never believed in myself. I was always mediocre in anything I did which resulted in a lack of passion. I didn’t really care to try new things because I was going to be a lame-ass anyway. So, I sat on my ass watching TV, sulking in my bottomless pit of self-hatred, and getting fatter, sicker.
I work with a personal trainer once a week. I give him a lot of grief. I give him dirty looks, curse, and complain with a dash of sarcasm. It’s a defense mechanism. I’m fully aware of that. I’m often not convinced I can do certain things. Sometimes I can’t do them. But the next time or the time after that I can. My brain doesn’t understand that you will never know if you can do something unless you try it. I think it’s time for my perspective to change. I can do it.
I signed up for my gym membership 2.5 years ago. It took this freaking long for the light bulb to go off. It’s shining brightly now. Oh, and I am a bad-ass.
Have you had a breakthrough along your path to a healthier you?