I’m officially declaring myself in a funk.
And I’m over it.
Saturday morning I got up and did a bunch of house cleaning. After that, I went outside to practice my double unders. I actually did okay getting a double under here and there which was a vast improvement over not getting any just days earlier. This put me in a good mood. A little later I’m in the shower and I suddenly start feeling a sharp pain starting in my back and doing down my left leg. Hmmm. This is odd. I spend the rest of the day in pain trying to find some comfort. Then it dawns on me that I’d heard of this before. Freaking sciatica. I woke up the next morning with the same pain albeit not going all they way down my leg. I hit my sister up (who is a physician’s assistant and past sufferer of sciatica) and confirmed my suspicions. Monday at work was lots of fun because I couldn’t sit for more than 10 minutes. I was standing up in the middle meetings as I got strange looks from my co-workers. I woke up Tuesday morning in even more pain. As the day went along though things improved significantly. I think this may be behind me in another day or so.
This incident which is pretty minor when you look at the big picture but it really sent me over the edge with how I’ve been feeling lately. I’m just frustrated….and tired. I’m tired of the constant bouts of nausea, I’m tired of not being able to eat fruit and veggies, I’m tired of the acne on my face (another issue since the stomach problems started), I’m tired of sciatica, I’m tired of being tired. I’m tired of this funk. Even Crossfit has felt like a chore the past couple of weeks. It is sooooo not a chore!!
I’ve been banging on the reset button but it hasn’t been working the way it always has in the past. That’s because I can’t go back to the same diet. The first step is admitting that I need to make some changes. I think I have a plan. I can’t go back to what I’ve done before to keep me on track. I’ve got to come up with something new. I will reveal my plan as I implement it. I may fail again. I may be successful. The only way for me to know is to do it.
When life gets you down, how do you deal with it?